Between the two of us, Jhomsz is the laid back one who doesn't fret easily. He teases me on the first sign that i become agitated when comes to our wedding preparations. I can't blame myself, i'm a bit paranoid that things might not go the way we want it. He usually reminds me that it is still pre-mature and our wedding is still months away, i just have to relax and breathe.There were times that i had tantrums, accused him that he doesn't care at all. Well that`s the estrogen talking. After my moodswing he will just laugh, brag at me that he is at his best when he is cramming or being pressured. However , for the past months he is now singing a different tune. He is anxious, impulsive, loosing weight ( i thought bride is the one expected to loose weight) asking me to send our caterers' package which i send for the nth times and this one was a shocker, he told me that he can already feel the pressure of planning a wedding! I didn`t expect that he will crack up this soon (baby i told you planning a wedding ain`t that easy).
While me on the other hand seems i lost my "mojo". No longer have the juice to check on our wedding preps. not even to browse the net since a 9.0 magnitude struck Japan on March 11 which also happened to be Jhomsz's birthday. Where we live we only experienced (approx.) 5 magnitude it was strong but still consider ourselves lucky, it pales in comparison to what happened in Sendai. Fear.Panic.The aftermath of it was really frustrating. For weeks we have regular earthquakes, our day won't pass without at least 3 earthquakes either with 2, 3, or 4 magnitude.Now it's been a month, i lost track counting the aftershocks that still continues. Despite the hurdle of being separated we're still going to get married and we're only 9 months before the big day. There are still many things to be done, i have to help Jhomsz in any way i can so i have to pull myself together. For starter i have to force myself to write something in our blog to condition myself `coz i really need my "mojo" back.
* this was what my aunt saw when she arrived @ our home after the poweful quake
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| @ the "Genkan" or the main entrance..surprisingly the vase manage to keep its position |
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| @ our kitchen |
